- Describe what your life was like before coming to Sovereign Health.
It was miserable. My addiction started when I was 13 and went on until I was 46. That’s a long time to be miserable. I was constantly trying to make it look like I was okay to my family and friends but I wasn’t. I was emotionally squashed because I was always trying to numb this guilt and shame and had no spirituality whatsoever.
- What were the most difficult parts of struggling with your addiction?
The hardest part was the toll it took on my family. I was so close to losing them, and was so worried that when I got out of treatment that they would be gone.
- What did you learn in treatment that helps you most in your life today?
What helped me most was talking to the house managers and counselors, and just hearing their stories constantly gave me hope. Rose and Randy kept on telling me that I could do it and believed in me so much that I started to believe too.
- Describe how your life is different now. What are the best parts of your life today?
I actually wake up happy everyday! I am no longer trapped in the cycle of constantly worrying about how I’m going to get money, how I’m going to hide things, or how to keep covering all the guilt and shame I feel. I finally feel FREE. I have a sense of purpose. I feel like a rosebud that has just started to bloom and open up. When I have difficult moments, I can hear Rose and Randy’s voices telling me that I can do it and I know that I can. My anxiety is gone now, and I’m a productive member of my family and of society.
- What are your plans for the future?
I actually want to become a drug and alcohol counselor. I’ve been so inspired by my counselors at Sovereign that I want to pay it forward and give back what I’ve been given. I just want to help other people recover.
- What would you tell the people in treatment at Sovereign now, and others that are struggling with their addiction?
It gets better. Take in everything while you’re at Sovereign. Pay attention. When I was in treatment I carried a backpack with me every day with my notebook and journal. I was constantly taking notes and trying to take everything in. Take advantage of this experience, and soak in everything that you can. Ask for help when you’re struggling because there is plenty of help for you if you just reach out. Remember that the only thing you have to change is everything, but you can do it. I am proof that it works.